It's More Than That!

Starting over is something we can do or chose not to do. Wait around and see what happens and you could be waiting for seventeen years. You would think you know a person when all along, they only notice what you're not doing for them anymore. I waited,and yes it was seventeen long on and off years. WOW! you may think I was stupid for even allowing myself to believe that this person was going to change, but the truth is, I was the one who needed to change. I thought that all was well on my side of the fence until I woke up and saw my life flash before my eyes. It was the life I was supposed to have lived if I would have taken the right road. I was afraid of change and change kept me in the dark for, yes, seventeen long years. Every time the phone rang, I felt like I had to answer in order to keep us together, when in my heart I felt I wasn't strong enough to stop and say, I don't want this anymore. I crawled under a rock and allowed who I was take on your mentality. I lowered my standards and excepted whatever you had to offer, even if I didn't want to. But on March 11, 2010, my entire life changed and right before my eyes. I saw that I was blind and the scales had finally fell off. I seriously thought I was going crazy because I was wondering why I didn't feel the way I did before. I was at a lost for words and I knew time had taken a step back and it was allowing me to take another chance, but this time it wasn't going to be with you. .